I believe that everyone is born as an emotional and spiritual blank slate, no one is born at a higher “rank” or level than others. Believing strongly in this, it’s weird to come across people that I honestly feel could possibly be below this borderline. Personality wise. I know I’m not better than anyone else, who am I to judge?
But I just find myself completely baffled, as if a rock was thrown at my leg and I were hopping forward trying not to fall, when I am in contact with certain people.
Liars. Abusers. I hate you both. Don’t take others for granted, don’t pretend to be someone’s best friend when you’re mentally spitting in their faces. You also gain nothing out of lying to people. And if you do, what are you? Some sick person that gets off on lies? Does that really turn you on?
I’d really wish I could speak freely of a certain person. But she tends to stalk me and a few friends of mine, which makes me sick. Believe me when I say she is not a trust worthy person, she is a liar. She abuses friendships to no end and somehow when the friendship is over, manages to worm her way back into peoples’ lives. Well, sorry sister. That’s not happening with me.
It makes me sick that you’re doing it to a friend, trying to get back into her good graces. But who knows, maybe she’s just humoring you. I just can’t stand seeing you around. Just the mention of your name makes me ill.
I’d like to think that I’m a loyal person (at least I hope I am!) and I don’t want to spend anymore time hating you. But you will have to work very hard to get back to a point where I can remotely stand you and your lies.
Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. You won’t be fooling me a third time.
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For those of you who aren’t Following me on Twitter (everyone but Mitch, shame on you!) I posted a tweet earlier about a new website I’m starting to work on. It’s titled Happyvenus and you can find it at happyvenus.net. There’s nothing there yet but a quick little splash I made with said domain name but here’s to the future!
I plan to at least attempt at something creative with that site, be it a photo blog of sorts where I post a pic I drew or maybe post up some designs I make. I’m not quite sure yet but I know I want to do something artsy-fartsy with it! I guess this will psych me up some more for my Wacom Bamboo tablet I’m still waiting for in the mail. Can’t wait to get it and practice with it! I haven’t drawn in forever but I plan to get back into it especially with the tablet. I pray this helps my web designing too.
I mentioned in the last post that I’m dumping the college scene and going to get a few medical licenses. College isn’t for me, it isn’t for everyone. I’ve had a tough time lately where my friends and family are split with my decision. A lot of them are telling me “You’re stupid for dropping out of college!” and some support my idea saying things like “It’s not college, but it’ll still earn you money. You’ll still get an education, and your dreams are what’s most important”. Of course I like the second opinion best! I’m in no way going to change my mind about this, but I would like to know what you all think of my plans.
At the end of April I’m going to start classes for four weeks in the field of medical billing and coding. Basically, medical coding entails that said person takes care of patients’ charts, using a universal coding method to mark things like symptoms on a chart and handing it over to a doctor. Medical billing is pretty much collecting money from the patients and insurance companies. It sounds boring, but it’s a steady job and an easy one. Plus it pays pretty well. Once I’m done with the classes I take an exam, and gain my medical billing and coding license that allows me to work in that field.
The second license is an EKG license. EKG experts strap a patient to a machine that prints out heart results like rate and so forth by attaching electrodes to the chest etc etc. This is easier than medical billing and coding, but is more secluded AKA lonely. Plus it pays less. This is also four weeks.
Then from there I’ll see what I do. Obviously look for a job. There are a few clinics really close to home so I’ll try there first.
What do you all think?
Blah. Simba still has fleas. There were dots of blood / black pepper (which are both flea poop. flea drinks Simba’s blood -> poops it out) in the sink this morning. Yeah, he sleeps in the bathroom sink. So I went out around noon and bought flea and tick powder. Supposedly if you rub it in his fur and skin real good, the damn things will die. I don’t have faith in any of these flea cures anymore except for medications like Advantage and Frontline but we can’t afford it. We need to settle for a cheap and quick fix until we can go and pay for his meds monthly.
My poor kitty. He’s an angel, too.
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[update] I gave Simba his shampoo bath. He behaved quite well this time, I was surprised and very pleased! Also vacuumed the stairs to get rid of any flea eggs. The poor thing barely had any fleas. I saw none drop during the bath and I took a good look in his fur and at the skin and nothing. It was when I was drying him that two dead fleas fell out. Win. [/update]
I went out with my grandmother (from Cuba, my mother’s mother), my mother and my aunt. It was interesting, I bought quite a few things for myself (which I’ll post in a special blog post I swear. it will include pictures!) for a very low prices. I rule at being cheap, ha!
“It’s not that I’m racist, I just don’t like black people” as said by my mother during the car ride over to Macy’s.
“God made animals so humans can eat them” quoting my aunt after finding out my older brother Mike is a vegetarian (and has been for about three years now).
Isn’t that just ridiculous stuff? I had to endure crap like that all day. I love my aunt, grandma and my mom even though their close-mindedness really gets on my nerves at times.
Simba has fleas. Even though we tried so hard to prevent them. I gave him medication in his fur and skin once a month (store bought, I must confess. as in, I went to Walmart) and he has a flea collar. But alas, I read up on a lot of cat related articles and neither of those things work.
Must’ve been the fact that he’s outside a lot and hangs around strays that did him in.
Later today I’ll be giving him a bath with dog shampoo that kills fleas and ticks (which works on both dogs and cats because we’ve tried it before on him, very potent stuff!). We can’t afford real flea medication like Frontline or Advantage at the moment so we’ll have to make due with randomly pulling socks on our hands and bathing him.
I’ve upgraded my WordPress 2.5 install to the second release candidate. Win.
Waiting for my Wacom Bamboo tablet to arrive in the mail. I purchased the tablet and paid for my Livejournal’s subscription the day before yesterday. My tablet will be arriving any day between Sunday and Wednesday. Mucho thanks to Mitch and Hazel who encouraged and inspired me to buy the same tablet they own. Ha, I’m so original.
I’ll be writing reviews on my site (in other words, ads) to support costs. I’ll try not to spam too much. I’m sorry guys. I already felt like a disappointment with the small little “Check this out” boxes below my entries.
The reason I’m doing this is because my family and I are completely broke and we need to pay bills. I need to pay bills as well and since we’re short on money, it’s kind of hard to do. You know? Can’t pay bills with invisible money.
I’m working on a secondary blog that you guys don’t have to read and suffer through because of ads. Once I get to three months posting on that blog I’ll move all advertisements over. This will NOT be a permanent thing. Posts that are a complete ad (none of it has any thing to do with me, I’m advertising a product or website or something) will have the label “Ad:” following by whatever title I want to give it.
I’m going to start school back up again soon. I’ve decided the whole college thing right now isn’t for me. I’m going to get a license in medical billing and coding and sometime down the line I’ll be getting a license in EKG.
I know it’s stupid to put off college. But my goals in life as soon as I graduated from highschool were to get a decent job for a few years, save up, and travel the world in hopes of finding myself. And by finding myself I mean finding a faith that I truly can connect with.
I’ve been studying a bit about Gnosticism and I’m really interested. My closest female friend (who I’m sure would rather remain anonymous for this) told me all about the ideas concerning Gnostics and it makes amazing sense.
Even if that faith is for me, I’d still like to travel the world and learn (and be surprised!) about the person that I am. Because I like thinking about stuff like that. Humans can do so many amazing things.
My nose itches. Someone scratch it for me? PLZKTHX
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I remember when I was about fifteen or so and I asked my older brother Mike about chocolate bunnies on Easter. I wondered why we ate them.
He replied with “Imagine if we ate off the heads of chocolate Jesus. I don’t think it’d be as cute.” That made me laugh. XD I still remember that to this day and reflect on that at times.
Today’s actually been a pretty lovely day despite all the rain. It’s been raining for two days around these here parts, but it’s nice. I really like the sound of rain, it reminds me of the beach (close your eyes and you’ll feel like you’re hearing the shore and waves, not rain) so it calms me. What’s weather like where you’re all at?
Even though it’s raining Mayito (mom’s boyfriend) and his brother Valdamir are outside on the grill making some sausages and other random assortments of meat for today. They have cheese out there too, but it’s Spanish cheese and blah. I don’t like it. Tastes like dried butter or something. Very odd flavoring to that cheese. They really like meat and cheese.
But it’s okay, because I have two loafs of Cuban bread in the kitchen so I can just munch on that while waiting for the meats. Wow, they’re playing the Macarena on the radio. Talk about a flash to my earlier years / the 90s.
Yeah. I can’t be a vegetarian. I like meat too much. I’ve tried the whole vegetarian thing but lasted about two months and broke down with total need of a steak in my mouth, ha.
I took a shower and I smell like strawberries, yum! You know, I really dislike shampoos / candles that smell like flowers. I don’t know why. They feel artificial (but they smell like flowers?) to me. If you put a Dandelion shampoo and a Strawberry Milkshake shampoo in front of me, you bet your ass I’ll use the Strawberry Milkshake one (and I did!). Same goes for candles. I only buy food-smelling candles. Right now I have a pumpkin pie candle on in the kitchen.
Mom and Grandma are upstairs sorting the mess of clothes and other items they’ve bought for my Grandma to take back to Cuba with her. The whole bed is covered in clothes and other junk. I hope they’re finished soon. Not for any particular reason but mainly because it sucks to do something like that on a holiday.
I haven’t seen Simba. Well I have but that was only in the morning when he jumped on my face. But besides that, I think he’s outside somewhere. He’s a beautiful, fat thing.
As for my fraternal twin brother Mark, he’s working now. And yes, all of my mother’s children start with Ms. Mike, Melissa (that’s me) and Mark. Can’t escape the Ms. And she wants me to name my daughter Mia. It’s a beautiful name but I don’t like what it means in Spanish (Mia = Mine. I don’t OWN my child) plus it’s yet another M name.
I would love to name my daughter something alternative like Luna but my family would hate it. There’s a cat named Luna in the family. “You’re naming her after a cat?!” I love the name Luna it’s so beautiful. But if not I can name her Alexis which is another name I really like.
If it’s a boy? Damien or Daniel. I thought of Adam but we already have a relative named Adam. Who I haven’t seen in a few years. Oh well.
No, I’m not pregnant. This is food for future thought.
All in all, today’s been a very nice day so far. As you can see, I’m working on writing about my life instead of the geeky net stuff I write about all the time. Writing about my day like this takes me back to when I was hosted by Icia. Good times. Where I blogged manually for two years. Very good, simple times.
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